How Am I “Supposed” to Feel?

I don’ t feel “spiritual.”  What does that mean anyway? I am a good person. I try to be nice to everyone unless they seem mean and then maybe I’m more indifferent. I take others’ feelings into consideration before my own. OK, not always but usually. I’ll use the plate with the chip in it or drink water if there’s not enough milk. I’ll eat the burned steak so you don’t have to. See how thoughtful I can be?

But when it comes to being a psychic medium, am I supposed to exude some sort of specialness? Should I look mysterious or have my own ambient theme music? I don’t call myself “Dream Catcher Moon Fairy” or anything like that. There are a lot of people who, when they are looking for a psychic to do a reading, want someone who looks the part. I will admit to wearing angel wing earrings and a chakra necklace. Not because I’m trying to look the part, but I really love them and they’re just part of my jewelry collection.

When I first started learning about angels and guides, Ascended Masters and such, there was a language everyone used. “Does that resonate with you?” was one of the sayings I heard a lot. “Let go of that which does not serve you.” “Break down the blocks in your life.” I’ve never talked like that in my life. I’m still the same person, why would I start talking like that now? Because it sounds spiritual? Does it sound like the words are coming from some higher source? Maybe. But you would probably hear me say “Do you understand that?” or “If you want to change your life, you have to move in a different direction.” Not woo-woo, I know but it’s just the way I see it.

If you’ve looked for a psychic online you’ve seen websites with all the images of stars and planets, ghostly figures walking into the sky.Ooooh, that person must be really close to spiritual energy. Honestly, at the beginning of my psychic career I did that too. I wanted to be perceived as someone who was “otherworldly” but it felt phony to me. Now I showcase my art because it’s colorful and represents who I am. I do have a couple of photos of Angel Tarot cards on there, but I figure some people might not know what they are.

I do ground and protect myself before every reading. I do clear afterwards but I don’t have a paragraph on my website about my housekeeping procedures. My spirituality comes from within and it’s a personal thing. So if you’re looking for a psychic reading, look past all the bells and whistles and see if you feel comfortable with the person. Do you feel a connection? What’s more important, a sparkly shawl with moons all over it, or a genuine smile? Let me know in case I have to dig my sparkly shawl out of the basement.


The Learning Process

In two days I start the first of three weekend-long classes toward a certificate in Mediumship. I’m excited and scared at the same time. So excited to learn and understand and practice with real volunteers. Terrified that nothing will happen and I’ll be the only one in class who can’t do it. Why do I feel like this? I have had many of my own experiences that validate my ability! I always come back to this one any time I start to wonder if maybe I’m making it all up:

I was giving a practice reading to someone who was a bit of a skeptic. We were texting and I was going to have to type my responses. I closed my eyes and right away I saw fishing lures. I felt they were for trout (I am not a fishing kind of gal, so I really have no idea if they were or not). I was standing on a grassy slope and there was a lake in front of me. At the edge of the lake was a man with a baseball hat and a German Shepherd. The dog looked directly at me and started running toward me, excitedly. This seemed odd to me that the dog could see me. Anyway, I told this to the person and he indicated that his dad had passed and that his German Shepherd dog had been hit by a car. The family always wondered if maybe they were in heaven together. I think that was validation for the both of us that indeed, we can be with our pets on the other side!

I think that’s a pretty cool story and it’s what I come back to when I start to have doubts that I will be successful in this class. Even though I’ve done extensive reading and written classes, I don’t have a lot of experience giving actual mediumship readings. You learn by doing so we will be assigned homework – which will be using our new skills to do readings on volunteers and get testimonials.

What is my motivation for becoming a medium? Is it bad to say I just think it’s SO COOL to be able to connect people with their loved ones? Is that ego-based? Probably. Is it bad to want to do something for a living that I totally love? No. I think that’s what we’re all supposed to do. The hard part is figuring out what that thing is.

I can do this.

Where Do You Draw the Line?

I have a friend who is way more advanced and experienced in psychic stuff than I am. She has taught me a lot over the last couple of years. She knows about things I’ve never heard of, and she can do things I’ve never ever thought about doing – in the psychic arena I mean.

She is a “Crosser-Over of Lost Souls” and this is something she probably does every day. She can just feel the spiritual energy, figure out who it is, what they need, and get them where they need to go. Yes, this happens to me occasionally, but more often than not, I’m busy with my day-to-day routine, my mind is on getting through my work day, getting kids where they need to be; you know the drill. A spirit has to come knocking on my door pretty hard before I realize what’s going on.

Keep that in mind as I wander off for a minute. A couple of months ago I was having hot flashes. Not unusual for a person my age, but it’s not a common occurrence for me. They came on suddenly, and they were “agitating.” That’s the best way I can describe them. Yes, I would get flush and feel like I was just a furnace from the inside, but there was something else. I felt like I needed to get out. Maybe that’s just how hot flashes are, I don’t really have anything to compare them to, but I would want to pace around until it was gone. I started researching them to see what causes them, what natural thing I could do to help ease them and just how long could I expect this to go on anyway?

I mentioned it to my friend and she automatically asked if I had some spirits hanging on. She does this to me all the time and you would think I would do it myself at this point, but it never occurs to me to look for a spiritual cause for anything that might hurt or be uncomfortable for no reason. Honestly, I didn’t feel anything, but like I said, things had been a little hectic. She mentioned that there was a news story online about four boys being killed in a plane crash recently and that they all perished in the fire. This is extra interesting because she doesn’t watch or read the news. On purpose. If she sees something that catches her eye, you can pretty much guarantee there’s a reason she saw it.

She said she would look to see if they were with me, and sure enough she said they were. Was I feeling their experience of the fire? She said she would cross them for me. We were texting at this point and my husband caught sight of what we were talking about. He rolled his eyes and said “It’s not like you’re not the age where you should be having hot flashes or anything.”  He’s not into this, can you tell?

I would say by the next day I had no more hot flashes and haven’t had any since. I share this story to give you something to question. If you don’t believe in any of this, you stopped reading this a long time ago.

When I said earlier that she is way more advanced than I am, there are things we talk about that make me wonder when she’s going to just jump out and say “You fell for it! I was only kidding!” Things that make no sense to me whatsoever, or seem so far “out there” that I wonder if I’m just supposed to believe everything because I know how knowledgeable she is about so many other things.

Is every experience of the truth different for every person? I never tell her I don’t believe what she’s telling me because we all have our own feelings about what we can accept, especially in an area so filled with the unknown. Where do I draw the line? If I draw a line I might miss out on something that DOES feel true to me that I didn’t know before. I don’t want to miss anything.

A Transformation

Why is it so difficult to tell people that I am an intuitive? Just for clarification, I use that word because it’s much softer and not as scary as the word “psychic” to most people. Everyone knows what a psychic is, but when I say “intuitive” I get a puzzled look and the ask if that has anything to do with Quickbooks (since their parent company is Intuit). 

My gift is developing and I try so hard not to compare myself. I am exactly where I am supposed to be right now. I think it may have something to do with my comfort on a couple of different levels. First, as much as I try, I still question my abilities. I get signs, I get validation, I get testimonials and yet I think I am just as surprised as anyone and I wonder if I’m making it all up. I’m 99.9% sure I’m not because there’s just no explaining some things. On another level, as I mentioned in a previous post, I don’t want anyone to think I’m a weirdo. How do you just happen to mention to someone you’ve known for 25 years that oh yeah, by the way, I’m psychic now. My biggest fear is that I’m going to embarrass my family. My husband and my son are science guys. They don’t want to hear about it. My daughter is much more open, but I’m pretty sure she doesn’t tell her friends. 

Some people are afraid of psychics and mediums because it’s against their religion. I am not religious, I am not going to be conformed into a set of rules about what God is. Instead, I am spiritual; I have a one-on-one relationship with God. But it’s a personal relationship, not one I’m going to be discussing with anyone else.

So How do you do your work without bringing it into the house? Sometimes I get excited about some messages I get and I want to tell someone! My dog likes to listen but I’m pretty sure the cat is a scientist too. I think I came up with a way to sneak it in though. I’ve had my art website and my intuitive website separate for a long time. I’ve decided to merge them into one entity I’m calling “The Artful Intuitive.” It’s a way to hide behind my art for a little while because I’m confident in my art and I really don’t care whether you like it or not. It sells to people who are attracted to it. Just like I give readings to people who need me. I am not going to be right for every person either way.

So I am stepping out of my fear a little at a time. For those who can accept that I offer a little something “extra”, nothing will change and that’s how I hope it stays. For those who can’t accept it, well I’m sorry that you think anything has changed because I haven’t. I’m just tired of being scared about whether you’re going to stop being my friend, or talking to me, or about me.

I promise not to carry around a crystal ball or wear a glittery head scarf when we are together. I won’t whip out my tarot cards at the dinner table (unless you ask me to) and I will never try to talk you into believing in what I do. But if you are curious about what it feels like, or how I get my messages, don’t be afraid to start the conversation. I can share my experiences and you can choose to believe what you wish!

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Communicating Through Dreams

I hate it when people try to describe their dreams, but bear with me here a minute because it really does turn out to be a great story.

Not long ago I received a “friend request” from someone I haven’t seen in over 30 years. We have a mutual friend, but I had to ask who this person was because I really didn’t recognize her name. Realizing that indeed we knew each other, it was nice to reconnect. I knew that her aunt was placed in assisted living several years ago with early onset Alzheimer’s Disease. I knew the aunt personally many years ago too.

About a month after reconnecting I had a dream that the aunt came to me and she took me flying over the Hotel del Coronado in San Diego. It opened up like a pop-up book as we flew over the ocean, then each piece of the hotel raised up page by page. It was very vivid and not something I could forget when I woke up. I thought it was weird to be dreaming about her because I hadn’t seen her in such a long time.

As I thought about it the next day, it came to me that this was a message from the aunt to her niece. I wasn’t sure exactly how to present this information or whether she would be accepting of a message since I’m pretty quiet about this sort of thing. I sent her a private message, and I think I just asked her if she would be open to receiving information that might be a little extraordinary. She said she was.

First I asked her if her aunt liked the Hotel del Coronado. She said she loved that place and went there often. That was my opening! I told her about the pop-up book and she told me that’s the only kind of books she can read now. She thanked me for the message and said she was going to go visit her aunt – she really hadn’t been there in awhile.

She went and brought a pop up book for her. Her aunt didn’t really recognize her but they had a nice visit and my friend was definitely happy she went.

A few weeks later I was in my bedroom folding clothes and I had what I call a “spirit surge.” That feeling of chills  like someone just walked through your body. I found out the next morning that her aunt had passed away. My friend did not get to see her again after that last visit and she was happy that she made time to go.

So now there are some interesting things going through my mind. I TOTALLY feel like this aunt had something to do with us connecting on Facebook. She wanted to see her niece again and how was she going to communicate that to someone when she has Alzheimer’s? Through the dream state. Her soul is free as a bird when she is sleeping and can go anywhere and talk to anyone. She chose to “talk” to me in my dreams and fortunately, I was able to understand what to do with the information.

Those vivid dreams you have…write them down and see if maybe there’s a message in there somewhere. It might not be for you. It might not come to you right away. But don’t discount it because maybe you’ve been selected as the messenger.

Is It Time To Take a New Path?

The majority of people I give readings to are concerned about career and finances. That is a common concern for most anyone these days and I can’t say I am surprised.

Everyone wants to know if they are on the right path. Are they really working to their true calling? Is there something else that Ishould be doing? There is a general dissatisfaction with where we are in life and we want to see if it’s going to get any better somewhere down the line.

First, YES, you are on the right path. You are exactly where you are supposed to be right this minute. It may not be what you imagined for yourself, you may be struggling through some hard times. You might hate the hell out of your job. Do you know why? Might there be some lesson there that you must learn now so that you can use this experience and knowledge somewhere down the line?

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Cut Through the Psychic B.S.

Sometimes I pick up the local holistic/mind/body/soul magazine on my way out of the grocery store. You may have seen the rack filled with those free publications. Sometimes you find something good there. Check it out next time you go.

Anyway, as I flipped through the pages I started to see practices and modalities I have never heard of. That isn’t surprising, I can’t know everything about everything, but I started to count how many different ones there were. I got sidetracked by the full page ad announcing “Marconic Reconnection – Spiritual Alchemy and Healing Seminars.” The program promises to share what galactic and celestial guides have to say about upgrading and reconnecting to the Axiatonal System of the Universe. Wow.  I hadn’t thought about upgrading.

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